i'm in a little bit of a funk lately. i'm not sure exactly what my deal is, but i don't really feel like doing much of anything. i just want to sit around on my own, but then i feel bad about it, like i should be doing more. it's weird. i am feeling especially detached when it comes to activism stuff right now, and i don't know what that's about. all i can say is, i have never been less enthused about the idea of going to a protest. i know i've talked about this before–protests make me kind of nervous in general anyway–but lately i'm just completely meh about the whole thing. i don't know if it's that i feel like i'm not making a difference, or if it's that my philosophy is changing (i.e., what is effective activism, to me?), or if the fact that i'm feeling detached in general is making me less likely to head out and do social stuff like that. or maybe it's something else. all i know is, i had a hard time even deciding to sign up for the farm sanctuary walk this year, and i LOVE farm sanctuary. it's a little disorienting. i'm going to think on this some more and try to figure out what's going on in my noggin. i'll get back to you if i come up with anything remotely interesting.